When I was in the 4th grade I was often asked, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I would confidently stare in their direction and tell them "an astronaut," without batting an eyelash. They would respond with a haughty laugh or tell me I was "adorable." I simply glared. Just you wait, I would think.
By the time 8th grade rolled around, I had gone to NASA Space Camp, and realized that no gravity might not be for me. Legally Blonde had just come out and I was headed for Harvard Law. "You need really good grades to get in there," I would always hear. Cue my eye roll. They had no idea what they were talking about.
However, high school was hard for me. Getting good grades was just as important as doing well in 3 sports and having a social life. Maybe Harvard wasn't for me. Maybe I would need to find a new dream to dream.
It was in high school that I learned to love writing. I headed off to college, declared my English major and decided that I would be a journalist.
Needless to say, I haven't exactly changed my mind since. Like most dreams, mine is lofty and requires a lot of hard work. Many of the opportunities I've created for myself come from persistence and effort. Nothing has ever been handed to me and I would never want that.
Recently, however, I've felt very discouraged. At times, it's hard to keep going when the world keeps pushing back. It's not to say I've never felt disappointment. I've been knocked off my feet plenty of times. But, two particular things often get under my skin: competition and comparison.
These stem from the "great expectations" of your 20's: to succeed in a competitive industry, in relation to your peers, amidst the chaos of supporting yourself for the first time.
It's hard to think of where you are compared to where you're "supposed to be." And this applies to many things - from relationships to jobs to friendships. Too often I forget that I am not alone. I must remember that I am where I am supposed to be. I've started to realize that life has a time table for me and things will fall into place when they are meant to.
So until then - I will smile through the sunny days and deal with any hardship that comes my way. After all, you're meant to enjoy life. Don't get stuck waiting for the next best thing.